Women are very nasty around each other. I don't like it. Going to stick to gaming with my bros. It's easier fighting dragons.

Time for a long overdue update. I haven't been posting much because I've been busy. And not just with work, either. While work does take up a large portion of my time, almost forty hours a week, the rest of it has been spent on four, technically three, other activities. First and foremost, for those of you unaware, I'm no longer single. I am dating a wonderful woman named Akisha, and have been spending quite a bit of time with her. Which is why thing two is still technically thing one still: playing a lot of warcraft. Akisha plays too, and we play together, which is really just more time spent together. Item three is my homebrew pen and paper game. Not going into details now, but it's good. Real good. Object four is a game called League of Legends. Yes, LoL. It's free to play and insanely fun, but it doesn't run on a mac. So, get a PC, fanboys. Also, I'd like to state the following... Matt Lauer can SUCK IT!

Feelings

I don't really know how I feel these days. On the one hand, I'm the happiest I've been in ages. On the other, I'm in a place where everything is very new and uncharted for me, and to be honest, it's a little bit overwhelming. Fear mingles with my happiness, creating a strange blend of feelings that I just don't know how to deal with, much less describe.

I don't want anyone to get hurt through all this, I want to do the right thing, so I'm trying to watch this feeling very carefully. I have a great thing going here, and I don't want to botch it up because the cowardly side of me fears the difficult road ahead and wants to bail. If every man gave up when things started to look a bit rough, the world would be in a very sorry state.

Just writing this down feels very therapeutic and I feel a bit better already. I wish things were a little bit more simple, but they're not, and they're not going to get any simpler while I'm on this road. So I guess I just have to crank up the ol' problem solver and muscle through the complexity - because often times, it's after the complex puzzles, not the simple ones, we find a truly beautiful picture - and a feeling of satisfaction.

That being said, I'm hungry and getting ready for work. I think we have waffles today. :)

Turns out I am too chubby for my armor. This angers me. I shall have to smite a peon with my cardboard club.

Working on a breastplate now.

I made a gauntlet out of cardboard. Oh, yeah, we're slow here at work.

It's funny, really. When life is boring, we want more excitement. But when It's exciting and moving fast, we want it to slow down so we can catch our breath. A part of me wants it to slow down, but another part of me accepts the breakneck speeds and thrives in it. I find I am as much a mystery to myself as I am to others.