I'm thinking of joining a Big Brothers Big Sisters program. Any thoughts?

I'm currently in the backseat of my friend's car and my mind is racing. For a moment, I did wonder if I was making the right choices. Now I have no doubt that this is the path I must take. Though I know mostly hardship awaits, I can see the beauty of my life starting to ignite from more of a spark. There is nothing fake here, nothing put forward to appease others. This is Ben. This is Raw. I an thankful for my friends and support, and I hope they all stick with me and are patient with me as I do what I must - chase a dream. Writing is what I know, understand, and love. I've wanted to write a book for forever. So I'm finishing it. I'm doing it. No fear of failure. No fear of rejection. No fear.

I wonder, at times, if I'm wasting my time chasing my dream. I can't seem to take off. Or even fuel up. However you want to word it. I tried listening to other people. To do it their way. But I have fallen short. Is this it? Is this the time to go all in, balls to the wall, and chase it with a fervor I have yet to ever show? I am weary... God, help me press on one more time. I can make it. I have to.

Here's the painful truth. I woke up today thinking everything was going to be ok. Everything was getting better. But in reality, i can only do so much... And again, I have fallen short.

Adventure

I'm going on a new adventure in my life. Will try to keep this as up to date as possible...